Tuesday, October 18, 2011

What do you pack for the ICU?

So tomorrow is a big day. I had a good day today. I worked, got out for a great run, and was yet again amazed by my friends!:)

We head to Seattle tomorrow. First to SCCA to have blood drawn for a research study I will be involved in, and then to UW medical center for check in.

I suppose eveyone would have a hard time with a diagnosis such as mine. I feel pretty good, actually, better than I have in a couple months. How can I be so sick? It's all starting to feel more real. I had a difficult time sleeping last night, thinking about everything possible and some impossible things. I am both glad and scared to be starting treatment. I have no idea how it will affect me in the short term, or how it will affect my cancer.

I am trying to muster every bit of strength that I can, however, I still have moments when I am absolutely terrified.
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14 comments:

  1. 12th Street ShoesOctober 18, 2011 at 10:19 PM

    Will be thinking about you! If you would like some company at any time during the treatment - count us in. We will be in Seattle all weekend. Jody & Brian

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  2. wendypatonOctober 18, 2011 at 10:33 PM

    Heather,

    I am thinking of you now and trying to send you love and peace. I looked up a few verses for you.. I hope they can give you comfort.

    Exodus 33:14 / Deuteronomy 31: 6-8 /
    Matthew 11:28-31

    I can not think of anything, in my own words, that are worthy in a time such as this.

    I know you are a strong amazing woman and have a strong, amazing man at your side.
    Will keep you on my mind and heart,
    Love ya, Wendy

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  3. saraOctober 19, 2011 at 8:33 AM

    I have nothing profound to say, so i'll just say, we love you! and you have Zak's Chevy....=)

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  4. jennyonthespotOctober 19, 2011 at 11:08 AM

    Heather... Jenny here. Sara's Jenny :) Just want to let you know our thoughts and prayers are for you over here in Poulsbo. And just so you know, I stock-pile glitter, so if you need any in the ICU, I got your back, yo <3

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  5. Burgh BabyOctober 19, 2011 at 11:18 AM

    Just thinking about you and sending you lots of positive thoughts!

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  6. monstergirleeOctober 19, 2011 at 11:20 AM

    Sending prayers and healthy thoughts your way. A hug too.

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  7. ErinOctober 19, 2011 at 11:24 AM

    Praying for you all the way from North Carolina :-)

    God is big like that...and He's WAY bigger than cancer.

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  8. TammyOctober 19, 2011 at 12:22 PM

    Hi Heather. I saw your post on Facebook this morning shared by Jenny. I am a WA girl myself so feel a connection already! I will be saying some prayers for you.

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  9. UnknownOctober 19, 2011 at 2:51 PM

    Heather, you are amazing is all I know. Anyone that can keep it together, work, still workout and have such a positive attitude is my hero. We are all thinking about you every minute of the day, Ryan is without words but I know he is scared and worried. Kick some cancer ass... Love you Starkey's

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  10. Patti LandeOctober 19, 2011 at 3:36 PM

    As I am sitting here thinking of you, I remember the first time we ever got busted together...1977, ballet class, we were 5. We got yelled at by Mrs. Bunstootight because you picked me up to show me how strong you were. Show off! I love you, Heather! Stay strong, girl!

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  11. BrandiDDOctober 19, 2011 at 5:14 PM

    Stay strong Heather!! You are one tough chick!! You're going to kick this cancer's a$$!! Big hugs to you and Kelly too!!

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  12. DawnOctober 19, 2011 at 5:30 PM

    I know this poem is old and has been around the block (like me) and in the movies (not like me), but I'm corny, and it touches me, like you do, everyday of my life. Love you

    i carry your heart with me
    by e. e. cummings

    i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
    my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
    i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
    by only me is your doing, my darling)
    i fear
    no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
    no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
    and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
    and whatever a sun will always sing is you

    here is the deepest secret nobody knows
    (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
    and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
    higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
    and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

    i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

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  13. BeckyOctober 19, 2011 at 8:30 PM

    Sending you LOVE, HUGS, STRENGTH, & PRAYERS. Stay strong. Love you two

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  14. ColleenOctober 19, 2011 at 9:10 PM

    Amazing Heather:)...you are loved beyond compare.

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