Running up that hill

First of all, I want to thank all of you that have been following me during this experience. Also to thank those of you that have posted such uplifting and positive comments. It really does boost my attitude and help me to continue:)

Last night went well, no real adverse reaction to the dose. The night , however, was a real blur.  My focus has become a little  less than it normally is.

I was able to be taken off the vasopressor long enough to be able to shower again today. It is nice to be able to fell clean, but it sure wears me out.

I just finished my 9th dose.  It is now 11:00 am. 

I get weighted every morning. Awesome right? So far I have gained 26 pounds. Pretty impressive huh? Fortunately, it's all third spacing that should be gone within days of my release. I still don't like it much.

Still itchy and red, my skin is starting to peel in places, and I have been feeling more tired each day. No real appetite.

My room is nice. All of the doctors and nurses have been very pleasant as well.

All of this would be so much harder with out Kelly here. I have always known what a special man he is, but this is another challenge that again cements that in my mind:) 

This afternoon was a little more challenging. I got really chilled,  itchy and restless. So comes the demerol, Benadryl and Ativan.  I thought that would treat my issues and also help me to sleep. No great results with any of the above  mentioned issues.  I am also back on vasopressors.

Now I have a little fluid in my lungs, so I am on oxygen. Joy!

I am still scheduled for my next dose at 6pm, it now 5:30. 

It is getting more and more challenging to continue and maintain a positive attitude. I have a few minor meltdowns today:(

5 more doses to go.  I feel like I am hitting the wall during a marathon.  Trying me best to run though it.

Until next time,
Heather